Injured beyond all hope?

Tell me. Who would request to be taken out of a game just before kickoff? Not many I know would have done that. And yet, for the sake of the team & for my own future, I requested it.

My lower back has been hurting on and off for the past few weeks. Today, I could not even jog on the court. This was when I knew I had to pull out.

During the game when we were trailing by a goal and one of the defenders got injured, my coach looked at me with anticipation and asked, “Can u play?” With a heavy heart, I shook my head. Remember Chin, this is best for the team. You can’t contribute if you can’t run!

The more I saw how the game was going on, the more I wanted to play… but I knew I would collapse on the floor in a painful spasm, if I were to sprint at all.

It hurts me more inside to realize that my injury has come to the point where I could only wait and watch, hoping my teammates would somehow win this game back. This is a fucking sucky feeling…

During the course of the game, I was testing my back with some light jogs. For some weird reason, I could jump and run without much pain, if I controlled the way I move. This was certainly a good sign. Hmmmm

Then in a sudden turn of event, NUS equalized and took the lead. From then on, the game was ours. This time my coach looked at me in the eye again. I knew what he wanted. I nodded my head, and mouthed “Yes.”

And so I was on court! Playing and running around. I was beaming once more.


I vow to all of you, especially my teammates, I will seek professional help and resume my self-physiotherapy. I won’t let you guys down anymore. I don’t want to let myself down again either… light or no light, i will find my way... this is a promise.